DAY 01
15.09
The day was rather dull and I felt quite blue. I did my bit and worsened it by listening to my 'feeling blue' playlist.
A lemon tea with my playlist and you're set to sustain the blue feeling.
DAY 02
16.09
All days aren’t the same, and that applies to the amount of work you get done too.
This is something that’s so so difficult to remember on days you haven’t done much. I’m still working on letting myself be on such days.
But more importantly, today was one of my best friends' birthday! I met her a day before uni started when I was trying out the hostel and well, am I glad I did.
DAY 03
17.09
I woke up to news about the government
claiming to not know the number of health workers that succumbed to COVID-19.
I'd made this packaging as part of an assignment but sits here perfectly.
Michiel Baas is an anthropologist who inspects men, masculinity, the middle class, and gyms in his new book, 'Muscular India' and spoke about it in an IG live.
Also Pillu Didi's birthday, so I spoke with her.
DAY 04
18.09
I had an absolutely normal day but my aunt's beetroot 'thoran' helped fix that. It's a typical Keralite preparation.
I started a branding challenge with a few of my friends where we'd develop a whole brand based on one word we chose at random, within a week!
This was the first brand I developed. The word chosen was candy.
DAY 05
19.09
I’ve had a horrible day so far. My tendonitis has acted up, which means my right thumb hurts alot.
Periodically, I am reminded that I could have very comfortably done a mainstream course. It's an inevitable conversation but somedays you really don't want that.
DAY 06
20.09
It's my brother's birthday (September's got a lot of birthdays).
He's currently in Seattle and we made some payasam to celebrate.
We lived together for 6 years and I remember being extremely happy to have him around. I obviously spent time reminiscing old times and things.
DAY 07
21.09
The Unbearable lightness of the fact that I could be whatever I want to be, wherever I want to be, is a thought that haunts me a little too much.
Which one should I choose? Which existence should I fill-in?
I also constantly rant about this unfair pressure to commit to one way I want my life to play out. It's almost like a marriage, but with your own life.
DAY 08
22.09
I hate to think that I can’t be grateful for something about the day. Does it make me a horrible person? How can I draw a balance between being a human and being a bitter one?
Horrible day. Felt extremely irritable for no specific reason. Just nothing nice about it. I feel like 100 knives are suspended and hanging inside me.
DAY 09
23.09
I had a work review today and it went horribly. Took me 4 episodes of the Office to recover.
Today was also leg day. No exaggeration, it feels like you need to band-aid up to survive.
DAY 10
24.09
On some days, I feel extremely lost. I feel like I haven't paved myself a path to navigate through anything.
As someone who doesn't like not having control over things, this isn't very pleasant.
But I felt better after I stepped out to get groceries. This is the first time out in at least 2 months. We usually get Grofer's at the beginning of the month.
